[ Respond | Andarin: The Mountains ]
Posted by A r n l e i f on March 4, 2009, 8:11 pm A rnleif
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Than the dirt, dirt, dirt on the ground.
Well wings on flames, kings with no names,
Well this place just ain't got right air right now.
He pulls away and imidiately my udits push back and as his seemingly sorowful if not shameful words escape him they only press back further until they are plastered to my skull. There is a pain as if a wild cat has taken my heart within it's Sharp grasp. I cough as i take a sharp breath, god this lump in my throat is literally causing me to have trouble breathing, i almost sound like I'm sobbing like a little girl. But there are no tears and my eyes, glossy with tears threatening to spill over, dart to and fro trying to look at anything but him as I try to cover my overwhelming emotions; in a more than awkward silence.
####, what the hell I was never anything but nice... and I'd thought i had broken through that tough exterior... that night, but no he lied. Not his words but his actions. I know he can read my thoughts and so i try as hard as i can to flood him with the sorrow pain and anger that begins to cloud my thoughts further. I had felt it brewing, I had watched my actions change, but now i felt it. thoroughly and my body trembles. I saw them... I thought that maybe, just maybe, it has meant nothing... but It was I who meant nothing.
His words were kind, as always, and as much as it pained me to see him in such a state, i could hold back my fury no more. There was sadness in my eyes, yet it was only a glimmer to the hate that began to brew. I had done nothing wrong, I did not deserve this. My stance is defensive, closed, and i still avert my gaze from him, " Yes, you have." My words were sad but laced with poisonous anger as well. I do not know what else to say and all I can do is shake my head and release a sigh, with no relief.
I look to him now, into his dark mysterious eyes... eyes that once intrigued and fascinated me... and I stare back, tears still threatening to fall and the full hurt i felt plain upon my face. I hold his gaze for a few moments, and if he says a word i cannot hear it, for my heart pulses loudly in my ears. I begin to turn away from him and my expression is soon replaced with the raw anger and rage that filled me, it soothed my withering heart.
And she will know. I had to walk away as i let my mind whisper this to him, I was no telepathic, i had no knowledge of if he was reading my thoughts at that moment... But i could not say these words aloud to him... I could not cause him anymore pain than he felt for as much as he had wronged me, I still felt for him... and so I would bring all my anger down on her.
7 year old paint 17hh. draft mix
Scholar of Legend
Teacher of Andarin
Earth III
Played by Indeh
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