Andarin: The Mountains: Yehl

but my dreams, they aren’t as empty, as my conscious seems to be

Their plagues had left them. Perhaps scared, not always physically. It was still fresh in Oceantree's mind though. The plague that put on her body that which was already in her mind. Unbearable pain. Pain of many kinds, but it was always there. She sighed deeply into the mare's embrace. Her teacher, no matter what level she was or how far she went, this mare would always be her teacher. Her guide and in someways even her guardian. After all she had never divulged her name secret with anyone. She used to think of it when she was a foal, but she never said it out loud.

She nodded to the mare's words and turned briefly when she realized the bear in the near vicinity. She knew he was harmless, but the way he greeted her by lifting his paw still seemed strange. She turned back towards Raven, letting her words flow into her mind like a comforting breeze on a warm summer day. She nodded gently as if she understood the mare's words - thoughts, whatever one would wish to call them. She did not have a true name in the sense that Raven had a true name, but she still felt like she could relate. Even understand to some degree. When Raven said it out loud her eyes opened (they had drifted down slightly out of relaxation). It was strange to hear it in a different voice. She was not offended, but it was still a strange sound. She muttered softly as she turned her face into the mare's colored mane, "Yehl." She tugged gently on the mare's locks. A rather childish action, but in many ways the young mare still felt like a foal. It was a comforting thing really. "I remember her saying what it meant. I asked why, because I didn't understand. She said the ocean was free and wild, but a tree is rooted deep in the earth." She still didn't really understand it, but she accepted it.

She felt the sincerity in Raven's last statement - wanting to take away her pain. Their physical pain had gone away, but there was still the inner pain that plagued Oceantree's mind every day. She almost felt like Raven had known this and might not have been completely referring to her outward pain. "I cannot blame anyone but myself for the pain in my life." Her words were quiet, and she partially didn't believe them. Was it all her fault? Did the others not hurt her? Yes, they did, but who's fault is it really? Who is the one that opened their heart to others? In a way she could only blame herself even if she wished to put it on others.

(wow talk about random. hopefully that didn't just kill your muse more XD lol)

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