Jo-Anne - hang in there, but be aware of your state. I waited too long and ended up at the doctor after gaining 50 pounds. She told me I was depressed and I'm now being weaned of the light medication. If you have a lot of dark thoughts, get checked out.
I also have a book where I wrote every memory of Price. I didn't want to let go of him - I was afraid I'd forget and felt it would be disloyal in some way. Writing his crazy and loving and stupid things down let me let go of one memory at a time, secure in the knowledge that I'd be able to go back to it when I wanted to. And I'm doing that now, ... and amazingly .. I'm laughing.
Whew I thought that dark time would never end. but I got support at the group meetings and from my doc.
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