Posted by rebecca
on 9/5/2002, 4:37 pm
I have come to this site and many similar ones in the past few days because I am trying to explore what has been happening to me over the last 8 years. I am 30 and I first began to speaking through what I am now discovering tobe mental telepathy when I was 22. I have been trying to stop doing for around 3 years now. When I began to speak with someone I was in university. He was someone I saw everyday. The experience has been very difficult to get over because I believed I was in love with him and he thought he was with me. But because the way we were communicating we were both very scared of each other. We had only spoken a few times physically and all our other communication was through telepathy. The relationship went on for several years. Throughout the entire relationship he would call me on the phone and hang up when I answered. Once a connection was made we could send messages to one another. I had tried to speak to him about what was happening but he just denied it and continued calling me. I got an unlisted number so he could not call me any longer, but he still found ways to contact me. I believed he was stalking me. He hated me because I wasn't who he wanted me tobe but he still wanted to explore the connection.I have not heard from him in 6 months now. However, since then I am communicating with another man. Now we seem to be able to communicate without making any contact and the feeling is much stronger. Hes married and now I am trying to stay away from him too. But because we don't have to see one another we can still communicate. I am starting to understand that I have some control and it seems to happen when I am sad or angry about what is happening to me.
I feel that these intense and horribly destructive relationships are ruining my life. For 8 years I have not been able to get close to any man and the ones that I am connected to shut me out or use the power to try to control me.
I have never dealt with either men I have only hoped that something would change or get better. The only thing I have been able to do is try and stay away from them. But this is very painful. This is something I dodn't really understand and can not talk to about because who would believe me? But I am sad all the time and alone. I am starting to meditate to have more control over my thoughts and maybe more control over the situation. But really I do not know what todo.
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