Kind of ignored my doctors most of the summer, so I could just 'forget' my problems and enjoy my holiday.....but you know, it has a way of catching up with you. My weight has dropped to 98lbs...I have no appetite, my fistula is leaking again, since my takedown in November..the pain in my gut radiates to my back, and it seems the pain in my joints is getting worse, (thanks, Fibro!) Had a dilation and EGD done a few weeks ago, and they found the usual inflammation, but are concerned with my other problems. They want me to have a full body CT Scan to check for tumors, and a blood panel to check for Lupus. If the CT Scan doesn't show anything, it will be more ivasive tests. I'm scared. I try to eat, but it is so hard...either I don't feel hungry, or when I do eat, it causes pain and more of the big D, and fistula leakage.
My depression and panic attacks have increased, and I feel so alone, I don't want to bother my family with it. I know most of you will understand what I'm going through, and I'm sorry I haven't posted, or been there for some of you in a long time, but I just feel like I need to reach out, I don't know what to do....I feel like I'm sinking.
Thank you for 'listening', even though you, my friends, are so far away, I still feel comfort here, and I hope talking about it on the board will help some. Much Love- Darcy xxxxx