Thought i would give yooz a wee update... as some of yooz know my last change at fertility treatment was a complete failure... Was and still am devestated that i won't be a mummy... I feel like such a failure as a woman that i won't ever have a child of my own. It was our last chance...we have 'discussed' adoption and Kyle won't go for it. The process is too long and we feel we've been through enough heartache as it is (a friend has just adopted a wee girl over a year ago and its still not finalised).. I know age doesn't mean anything but Kyle is 43 now and to be honest spending another few years in hope of getting accepted fro adopting etc is just too much. We've been together now for 8 years now and i've been sick for it all (fell ill 4 months into our relationship)..I just feel we've been to hell and back and we deserve to have a break and enjoy our life together.
I'm back on all my painkillers again for the Endomitriosis pain whiich in turn is causing horrendous pain in my botty!! Passing alot of blood from my bottom aswell which is doing my head in.
I've spoken with the fertility clinic and they are getting together with my gastro mannie and the surgeon again to see what they can do to make me feel better (hopefully they can fix my bottom without removing it so to speak)...
I've got an appointment to see my councillor next week to go talk about everything thats been going on...GP wanted to prescribe anti-depressants but i don't want to go down that route...i will get through this.
Going away with kyle this weekend to re-charge our batteries and have quality time together.. can't wait!!
How is everyone else??